Path To Convocation

Yesterday (31/07/2012) was the day that I waiting for a blast and joyful moment, Oh ya, why say so?
Yes, yesterday was the last day I check my result by using university portal. After this, no more checking result, preregister for courses, verify examination timetable and so on. Ya, going to miss this all soon, i guess!


I am actually quite happy that I finally graduate from university with a Bachelor Degree. For the pass 3 years since 2009, once I step into the gate of university, the feeling is still there. I really miss the moment together with those university friends, being crazy, explore everywhere, singing, watching midnight movie, overnight chatting, supper and so on. Everything is always in my minds! It's going to be my footprint of my life! I really appreciated!


On October 20, 2012, Yeah! I am going to step in the stage of convocation! =) I think this is the end of the university life and finally I have to go to my career life. No matter how, I just feel this pass 3 years was just awesome! =D


Good luck to myself!

Life After Graduate is Career

It is actually a question to be ask to all fresh graduate, what you want to do for your career?

I don't ever think about my future and get lose and blur. I just wish to get a very stable job, save some money and go for some journey to oversea or domestic. 

I went for few interviews since last few weeks. There is always no respond by the employers, i don't know what is the problem with my conversation with them, maybe i just too worst or maybe I don't have very good interpersonal skill or maybe my speaking skill with those broken English cause them hard to accept me as their workers. 

I hate the feeling of waiting. Sometime, really exhausted to meet their high requirements, they want go command in English and great skills. Unfortunately, I don't have it all. My problem is I don't know how to speak fluent English, maybe if i get employed, i can speak it very fluently. I don't know, someone told me you can be better after few months of working. Also, I don't fulfill their needs, especially those financial knowledge, I really never learn it and never explore this kind of terms. Some say, nowadays, you can't be dependent to the education and knowledge that you gain during your study. You actually have to put more effort on doing your own reading on those latest financial terms or maybe read more articles from the internet to know the economics changes. I am actually quite lazy to study those things, because it looks so bored. However, I had determined to be a knowledgeable people, so that I had started to read Biz and business news from the newspaper recently, normally i will filter it and only read those interesting topics. I hope this may help me for my future interviews so that i can be more confident if the interviewers asked for the current economics.

I feel so stress when seeing people around me get employed by the company. I feel myself is quite useless and sometime can't sleep well and keep thinking of my own weaknesses. What should I do to improve my skills? Sometime, I wish I can speak very good English, I will start to think, Why my parents don't send me to the English education school? But, I appreciated I know 4 types of languages and sometime I see those English educated is quite worst in English too. Actually I am facing a problem, when i try to speak English in front of people, I will start to be nervous and can't really pronounce clearly. How should I solve this problem? I found the solution recently, I know I must prepared first and practice many times. Sometime, take a deep breath before interview also a good solution. 

I am looking forward to the career in my future, but the waiting time is very torturing. Someone told me, if you feel free, go to enhance your knowledge, do you time management well, read some books, so that you can utilize your free time worthy. The labour market getting competitive and every new blood is looking for a good career. What should I do, I must be more unique and i want to increase my potential and make myself to be more employable.

May God bless me always! =) 

瓶颈

超久没有来到这个地方写东西的~

最近想把一些最近的心情写出来，

对了，实习的日子已经结束了~

去了一趟旅行，吃喝玩乐~ 一切疯狂结束了，就是烦恼的开始。

其实最近都被一些无形的压力打压我自己，

坦白说，我还真的不知道自己该做些什么？

英文又不是太好，半桶水，而且找的那些工作根本我就不知道是什么？

好像没有关系那样~

好吧，尝试去apply。可是到现在也没有电话打给我。

或许我应该这样想：需要点时间，给点耐心自己~不要急，急也没有办法~

可是看着朋友们一个一个的好像都找到工作时，自己的心里总有一些小压力~

唉~好像自己不比他们来得积极~

不知道为什么，觉得自己还是一个小孩子般的想法一样~

对自己的未来没什么意见。

唉~不是我灰心，而是真的太多太多比我厉害一百万倍的人和我抢一个工作岗位~

我不是想要比较，可是，遇强则强是一定要有的战斗精神！

我要凸显自己，才能然别人对我有印象~

所以想让自己更加特出，我要更积极表现自己！

唉！

未来的路还真的很长，现在面前就好像一堆烟雾把我迷失在一个迷宫内~

好吧，我只能告诉自己，上天不会只为你开一条路，其它的路，自己摸索吧！

总有一天我会走出这个瓶颈！

加油！！

路

不知道为什么，最近真的是很想远离面子书，好像又很多心事那样~

可是，好像又没有，感觉又心事可是不一会儿又会很容易忘记了~

好像改变一下自己的心里，譬如刚刚明明就是好心情，可是不一会儿就开始有点伤感~

有点小情绪~

好像别人对我的玩笑，我都当做真的，明明以前热情的我，开始很敷衍的，感觉上别人都知道我已经开始情绪化了！

我不把他们当白痴！我知道他们是懂的！

突然很不开心！

不是因为什么很大的事情，而是心里上的一种感叹！

感叹其实没有这个必要再那么开心了，累了！想休息一下！

原本滔滔不绝的我，有时候也想发下脾气！

基本上我很不喜欢这样，可是有时候我真的累了！

我需要点时间平衡自己的心里！

感觉上朋友也开始疏远了！该说的话题也说完了！

或许这就是所谓的转折点~

路总有走完的时候的，我知道我时候走另外一条路了！也许这就是人生的道路！

人总是要长大，人总是要改变！

我相信我已经前往着另外一条新的道路！

或许我还不适应自己，所以心里才不平衡！

我要加油！

EQ高一点！

在意

那天有个朋友告诉我，以前还没认识你的时候，有个朋友和他说，小心kenn ho这个人！他并不是那么简单！

这到底是什么话？是在投射我什么吗？我到底有多可怕？

虽然，这已经是几年前的事情了，可是心里还是有点点不开心~我还是在意这句话！

看来我在他面前是一个恐怖份子！老实说，他在我眼里只是一个普通的朋友，从来我都不提起他！

可是，我在意了~可是，我尽量让自己好过点，不去想！可是我反问我那朋友一句：你有后悔认识我吗？他也没有什么回答什么的~也算了~~

其实还有件事情，在心里想很久了~

我真的不知道到底所谓的好，在一个人心目中是怎么衡量？

我在想，到底是不是该买多点礼物来慰问他还是我要怎么报答他才算是好呢？

我不知道，或许他认为我可以做得更好，可是，我所谓的好都已经表现了！看你到底接不接受而已？

我不知道到底自己可以做好人可以做到什么程度？

或许你可以说我不是一个很好的朋友~可是，以我的角度来看，我已经尽力去做得最好了！

你可以说我是自私，可是我不知道你所谓的自私在什么程度！

对我而言，我有去做，就算就是那么一点点付出，你就不能说我有一百巴仙的自私！

你要如何去评量我是你的权力，至少我希望我自己已经尽力了！

如果你不懂得欣赏我，你可以避免我！而不是在旁做无声的抗议！

我其实有少许的不开心，因为你不懂得欣赏我！

我不知道你的道德及价值观在那个程度，可是以道德的角度，我已经尽力了！

至少我知道我不会那么狠心去unfriend你！

希望你真的体谅我，朋友！！

Green Invasion

这几天，在面子书上看到很多人都在把自己的头像换成绿色，还以为是什么日子！

于是边去探个究竟，原来是反稀土的活动！

起初，我并不知道什么是稀土，可是经google search过后，才知道事态严重！

马来西亚到底怎么了？

我不是什么政治评论家，只是普普通通的大马人民~在这个空间里，想分享对此事不满的意见！

我不是在看死马来西亚，可是毕竟这种能释放毒素给人民的化学物，怎么可能草草了事呢？

以前，报纸报导一篇用百万令吉所搭的一座体育馆，这座体育馆突然之间塌下？我的妈呀，这种豆腐渣工程，怎么可能在我国发生呢？唉！如果那体育馆是有人在使用，大马肯定又在国际头条了！

现在这稀土工厂，施放这种有害的化学物质危害人民，怎么可以那么随便定夺呢？

这稀土工厂怎么会在马来西亚建立起来？

马来西亚真的可以把危险性减低到0巴仙吗？我不相信！！！

我的妈，连体育馆都不能建好，现在这种那么可怕的工厂建立起来，如果真的有意外，谁去承担？现在是关于到未来，如果附近的人民中辐射，会怎么样？难道又要用钱解决吗？

又花钱？我在想大马真的那么有钱吗？大马真的很会赚钱吗？难道等到财务危机才开始觉悟吗？

大马在这种高科技的技术上显然并不成熟，我们只能做白老鼠！

我真的求政府可以好好考量大局，而不是为钱而看！

大佬，你不要活，我们还要活呢！

可不可以求政府停止这稀土工厂吗？

很怕很担心！

这种高科技的技术暂时不要带来我国吧~

我没有信心，也不懂得这工厂会为我国带来什么发展？

如果要赚钱，做稀土工厂肯定不是最佳选择，要投资也要投在安全的地方？而不是会引起大家大吐口水的工程！

Stop lynas, i will love Malaysia again! Malaysia, please be rational! I love Malaysia, Malaysia please love me! I don't like Lynas!!!! U love me, i love you, this is our business! thank you! may god pray for Malaysia! No lynas, ban lynas!!!

Internship

Well, I know internee, always been treated as a cheap labour, but u have to accept the reality,

the carry marks is on your superior authority!! WTH......

The 1st day of internship, well, wearing formal..... 1st time being so formal like a businessman(self praising)...... tied well my necktie!! the feeling is just hyper nervous, because i never go for an office for admin job!

the 1st day of job, arrived my office entrance before office hour start! good, i am talking to myself, i come earlier today! Second, my grooming is suitable! well, this is a MUST do things, never let myself looks so ugly..... 1st impression must be WELL WELL WELL......

one week gone, omg, i started to feel this is bored! haha! omg, just worked for pass one week, then start to say boring! how i survive for the coming 4 months????

Well, i told myself, u force to face the reality, you need to graduate, must work hard for this 4 months!!!!

ok, one month almost pass, what's my feeling?

Well, so far so good! It's ok, i start to adapt on this working environment!

Knew some new friends and colleagues! ok, 3 more months to go!!!!!!

YEAH!!!! I LOVE CHEAP LABOUR LIFE!!!

Hahaha!!!

2012农历年！

今年是龙年！

祝龙马精神！

新年过后，就是忙碌的日子了！

祝大家，新年快乐，万事如意，年年有余！！！

事业顺利！

Hohohohoho！！！！

干杯吧！！！

Sucks Week!!

I had experienced 2 weeks of sucks life in my uni!

this 2 weeks is totally time wasting week!

well, thesis stuff still unsettle and i need to submit it before my internship start!

unfortunately, my supervisor always delay his meeting time with us!

omg, i had been waiting him for one week, he said he is on leave now!

well, i keep waiting!

my mate tell me that he is available on tuesday, i m so happy with tat, my brain keep thinking of: omg, finally i had settle my thesis!! this is fxxking excited!!!!

once i arrived my faculty, sunddenly, message received and we felt pissed off!!!!

OMG, how can he delay our meeting? it should be in his schedule, ryte? he promised with us he is available on 3pm tuesday!!!

well, we asked him when he will be free?

he said wednesday 10am.....

after seeing him for almost 10 minutes on wednesday, he commented that a lot of correction need to be done for the thesis! It's not mine! but, i can estimate that my thesis will be more worst than my mate!

Then, we had decided that we will be right bek to ukm during the third or fourth day of Chinese new year! this is so sucks! n my feeling of celebrating CNY totally spoiled by him! i have no mood to do my thesis!

but no choice, i have to accomplish it before my internship start! i am unable to meet with him when i go for my internship! it is too far lah! i won't sacrifice my lunch time to do such idiot action to meet with him for a short meeting with duration no longer then 20 minutes! taking public transport especially KTM used up to 20 minutes! walao! 1 hour of break, how can i go to meet him?

my supervisor ask me to get permission from my superior for meeting with supervisor, walao! how dare i will do that wor? this will affect my internship score wat! he told me that Cheras is quiet near from UKM, well, i know it is near, but please consider that i dont have own transport! moreover, malaysia's roads "love" traffic jam!

Salute to my supervisor! i m not "du lan" u! but, i wish u will not spent your time with your holiday! many students need to meet with u leh!

I NEED GRADUATE! NOT U!!!! thank you!!! hope you understand our situation!

原来3年就这样过去了~

2009年，第一次踏入大学校园，说迷茫并不迷茫~

要适应新环境真的不难，一个礼拜的迎新周，眨眼般过去了！

认识各地的朋友，刚开始是融洽的，可是原来一切都是风风雨雨地度过，人言可畏！

这一切挨过了！一切还是过去了！有些事情，不了了之，让时间的催碎，把它们给忘记掉吧！

第一年原来不长，嘻嘻哈哈地度过，成绩如何，看看就好，第一学期的成绩虽然不标青，可是至少我努力了！好吧，放下再重新出发~一如往常，得空的时候就是出游的时候，明知自己已经要扑街了~可是，执迷不悟，于是周身债！这一切还是过去了！美好的回忆用钱换回来~

第二年了，遇上很多挫折，没关系，我忍！！！成绩开始下滑，别人问我心情，我说：没关系，我已经不理了！我还是3以上的中等学生！哈哈！感恩！也很谢谢自己那么看得开，第一年的承诺，告诉自己至少要有一次上台拿奖的机会，谁知，出尔反尔，越来越烂~读什么东西，一遍又一遍地温习，这一切的过程虽然不算辛苦，可是我还是Ok ok地过~算了吧！

要特别提提第二年的第二学期，老实说，要不是知道这个学期那么多杀手教授，我也不会那么得空画了无数次的图表，做成一本小小的笔记本！老实说，没想到自己可以在学期中考时，拿到43/50 的成绩！哈哈~可是，这一切只是短暂！杀手把我们这班大学生，全数KO！好的，我还在中等成绩~算是侥幸了！感恩再感恩！你问我这学期辛苦吗？我一定回答你：还好！只是有点不甘心！为何遇到这些不熟悉的杀手？

第三年了，第一个学期，感觉很轻松，可是，我知道这并不是如此，谁知道，原来是那么地可怕！面试面试再面试，论文，没完没了，乱七八糟的呈现！OK，我还是一如往常，出去喝茶逛街！很好啊，我懂得去享受这大学美好时光~

接下来的日子，2012年2月1日，我不知道会是如何~只能忍忍忍！

社会新鲜人的生活，要开始啦！！！可是，还是得疯狂一下，农历新年到了咯！！！！

两个礼拜过后，未知的生活要开始啦！！！！

加油！！！！

My 1st Paper on Friday.... Dizzy!!! @@

考试了考试了！！

真是可怕啊~

我还没读完咧！！！！星期五是第一张paper！读了一些，可是不明白哦~

唉~算了！又不是第一次这种感觉~

biasa它啦！！

加油！！！！

考试加油加油！！！

不会做也要乱乱呕东西出来！！不能fail!!!!!